[11/7/2015, 12:17 AM] Sg:  Just sweet things like shoulders, head,...
[11/7/2015, 12:19 AM] Ale: Oh yes
[11/7/2015, 12:19 AM] Sg: That's cool.
[11/7/2015, 12:19 AM] Sg: Sometimes I like to take long walks
[11/7/2015, 12:20 AM] Sg: And when I come home at night. And and I walk with a shadow, I imagine it is someone (and in this case, let's say u)
[11/7/2015, 12:22 AM] Sg: And I walk in the dark with the street lamps and I see my shadows. I walk myself home and I imagine u walking next to me. And u walk with me home. And I would listen to my music or my podcast and sometimes I imagine holding ur hand in our shadows. And then I reach home. And it becomes sad. Because I don't see ur shadow in on the ground anymore
[11/7/2015, 12:23 AM] Sg: Oh ale. Don't freak out right. Just talking imaginary. Poetically. Not about u
[11/7/2015, 12:28 AM] Ale: I know!
[11/7/2015, 12:28 AM] Ale: That's beautiful ๐Ÿ˜Š
[11/7/2015, 12:28 AM] Ale: And sad too
[11/7/2015, 12:29 AM] Sg: And then when u do leave
[11/7/2015, 12:30 AM] Sg: It is like my heart is going to fall out of my chest. And I have to hold my breathe so hard and put my hand on my chest
[11/7/2015, 12:31 AM] Ale: You should write something
[11/7/2015, 12:31 AM] Sg: As if to keep my heart in, from falling out. From the pieces from breaking and falling into pieces on the ground
[11/7/2015, 12:32 AM] Sg: I have to push it in. So hard that hopefully it would stay in. And I would lay down with at the pieces would stay in shape and hold its place as I pass out in the midst of drowning in tears
[11/7/2015, 12:32 AM] Sg: Yeah. I thought I could be some kind of heart break poet
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Ale: Definitely
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Ale: Wish I could
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Ale: But men are simple
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Sg: Tell me
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Ale: At least me ๐Ÿ˜’
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Sg: They r not romantic?
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Sg: Not yearning ?
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Sg: I don't know
[11/7/2015, 12:33 AM] Sg: I am a romantic. Even born on Valentine's Day
[11/7/2015, 12:34 AM] Sg: I am creative. Not like u. U r musical. I am artistic
[11/7/2015, 12:36 AM] Ale: I know
[11/7/2015, 12:36 AM] Ale: I mean me I don't have that
[11/7/2015, 12:36 AM] Ale: When I was in love maybe
[11/7/2015, 12:37 AM] Sg: But now, as I lay exhausted from the hamster wheel of a week. I imagine as if the person I am writing to as someone who would read this just to read this as pure words as I need to regurgitate.
[11/7/2015, 12:38 AM] Sg: That perhaps if u were him, whoever he is. I am exhausted and I wish as I am writing this, u were next to me. That u would put ur hand and ur fingers through my hair and massage my head and tell me that I am silly to be on the mobile.
[11/7/2015, 12:40 AM] Ale: Hah
[11/7/2015, 12:41 AM] Sg: And I would look up at u and smile and u would kiss my forehead and I would put my phone down. We would even contemplate watching a video but u would shut the laptop and put it on the floor and then light the aroma lamp and switch off all the lights. And come back to bed, hug me so tight and just keep stroking my hair and tell me about your day. And even better, what we would be doing over the weekend. What for breakfast and who would cook it
[11/7/2015, 12:44 AM] Sg: And we would fight Coz I don't like pancakes and I want to cook eggs. And there would be a pillow fight    Just too exhausting after a long week of work that I would give up and just hand you the pillow as you slap the pillow into my face. I fall onto the bed and just close my eyes. You pick my head up and place a pillow under and then your arm. And u hold me and we sleep. Me breathing into your neck just so u know I am breathing and alive next to u. And u holding me just so u keep me warm, and safe and then I would never go too far away from u
[11/7/2015, 12:44 AM] Ale: Did you have that before?
[11/7/2015, 12:44 AM] Sg: I imagine it
[11/7/2015, 12:45 AM] Sg: I had it close. Not that how I wrote it but one day. I am still optimistic I will find that person
[11/7/2015, 12:45 AM] Sg: I am not hoping for the sky. It is simple
[11/7/2015, 12:52 AM] Sg: And occasional, I would have a bad sleep. And I would cry in my sleep. And u would wake me. And I would sub consciously ask wtf what's going on. U would kiss me on my neck and face and hug me so tight and spoon me and say, nothing. It is ok now. Nothing happened. I am here. And we would fall back to sleep. With me being oblivious of the bad dream. And then waking up the next day, just opening my eyes slightly and seeing ur closed eyes next to me, even when I am slowly letting the light into my eyes. I see you. I close my eyes again just to check if I was dreaming. I open my eyes again and u are still there. I watch u for a while. And then I close my eyes and cuddle closer to u. U hug me tighter. I fall back to sleep together with u
[11/7/2015, 12:52 AM] Ale: I had that
[11/7/2015, 12:52 AM] Ale: Twice
[11/7/2015, 12:52 AM] Ale: Is the best
[11/7/2015, 12:53 AM] Sg: Yes.  I miss it
[11/7/2015, 12:53 AM] Ale: But after it was the worst
[11/7/2015, 12:53 AM] Sg: Doesn't happen often
[11/7/2015, 12:54 AM] Sg: I swear to myself. It will happen to me again. Another time. One last time.
[11/7/2015, 12:54 AM] Ale: Of course
[11/7/2015, 12:54 AM] Sg: But it is something I cannot force
[11/7/2015, 12:54 AM] Sg: This is chemistry
[11/7/2015, 12:54 AM] Ale: Always happen.. Someday
[11/7/2015, 12:54 AM] Sg: It seldom happen

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