LIFE IS A JOURNEY, ARE YOU READY?

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WHOLESOME INFUSIONS AND VINO FOR THE LAST DAY. STAYING DOMESTIC AND USING SOLITUDE TO HEAL OUR EXHAUSTION AND SPIRIT. SEWING, MENDING, IRONING, CROCHETING, JUST ANOTHER WAY OF GETTING READY FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER. AROMATHERAPY, MOVIES, CLEANING, CLEANING OUR SOUL AS WELL, GETTING MENTALLY PREPARED FOR THIS COMING WEEK. WRITING, DUMPING, CLEARING, CLEANSING, OFFLOADING. FORGETTING, REMEMBERING, ARCHVING, MOVING ON. RECOVERING, RENEWING, ENERGIZING, JUMP STARTING.

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN 'I LIKE YOU' AND 'I LOVE YOU'

Once, we said 'I love you' to someone in the simplest way possible. The person awed us and we just exclaimed, 'Love you'. That didn't go down very well. We guess 'love' is a very taboo word for many. It means intimacy? Forever? Commitment? We stumbled upon the quote above today. And it cannot sum like and love up more than the analogy. And so what if we love you that we feel like caring for you. If you don't appreciate it, fine, we move on. 

WE ARE BACK CROCHETING


We have some from our Hanoi Trip, yes, it is from that long ago, say 4 years? It has been sitting under the drawer for the longest time. We are taking this long weekend to reboot and also trash the old. Yep, that is what we like to do from time to time. We are slowly embracing the minimalistic lifestyle if that is even achievable. We got back into crochet this weekend with the thick yarn, we are making a scarf out of it like we do not have enough scarves already. Let's see which lucky one would receive this as a present. 

We have laid off crocheting for a while, considering there have been too much on our minds. We thought it is time to restart since we have some leftover yarn sitting around. Yarn is getting more and more expensive. We wonder what we would do after finish this batch.

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MEANINGFUL MOVIES. REST AND RELAX THE WHOLE WEEKEND, FEELING RELIEF FROM THE FATIGUE. SEWING AND MENDING. RAIN. WRITING. FORGETTING. RECOVERING.

LITTLE BOY (THE MOVIE) : WITH FAITH, YOU CAN MOVE ANYTHING

We are watching this movie this morning of our long weekend and what a good choice. We thought it would be heavy but this is very heart warming for a rainy day and we definitely need the goodness in this film to lift us. With faith, you can move anything. Just believe.

INTO ANOTHER CHAPTER : MAY IT BE, FINALLY


That is exactly how we are feeling right now. It is the first day into the long weekend of public holidays and boy do we need it. We slept most of today. Considering the procedure we had yesterday, the last 1.5 months of melodrama and surrealism, the lack of sleep, the ups and downs, the stress from work, the more unnecessary stress from work, the supernatural encounters, the hormones, the tears and the laughters, the everything. How did all that happen in a short span of time? We are tired. We finally gave into the fatigue today. It was a whole lot of snoozing, dozing off in the middle of movies and videos, drifting off into the monotony of monologues and dialogues.

Finally. Rest. We have not been able to sleep for weeks. Surviving on mere hours of sleep and adrenalin and dopamine and whatever else we were feeling was taking a toll on our spirits. We think something was weighing down on us. Sometimes us human are such complex creatures that our minds play games with us, being oblivious to what is so painfully obvious and yet our subconscious fights it and thus the toll.

Let's not even discount the supernatural events around us. Scary and shocking as some of them may be, the fatigue just led us into oblivion. Come what may, knock on doors, activate electronics, call random people on our phones, we are tired. Just do whatever you want. The painful part isn't even about those event that happened, it is that the person we wanted to believe all these is skeptical. Possibly insinuating we are lying. The communication is broken. No more. Doesn't even matter any more. We have lost him. A person, a friend, a dear person, who shall probably never enter our lives again.

It is funny how sometimes we can trust some people so easily and some people not. How in an instant, we could be vulnerable and naked in soul to some people, that they see everything of us, and yet we put a front, a strong front in front of some people. And then you feel so broken because you let that person in and that person isn't worth it after all. All your insecurities, dreams, ideals, fears, exposed. That person knows your kryptonite. And this is dangerous. And now we have to change our kryptonite to protect ourselves.

It is funny how chemistry works, or how the whole universe works. What happened? Was it the stars and planets? Did we meet when some things were aligned? So tired. So exhausted. So do not want to continue feeling this way. Tragic, star crossed, period.

FEELS LIKE SUMMER


It is raining in the tropics today. And although so, Shaun the Sheep movie really warmed us up and we are feeling the goodness from innocence. Let us forget how complicated life can be. Everyday feels like summer with you.

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Feeling good today. Had our procedure yesterday and we shall see what comes out of it. It has been a long time coming. This August will be good says Susan Miller. This will be a weekend of rest and relax and planning and strategising. We just have to keep reminding ourselves that we are worthwhile and everyday is another chance to push and push our abilities. Life is delicious so f**k those who are toxic.

HEARTBREAKING QUOTE WE FOUND

HER: I wish I could hug you now.
HIM: Me too, and then I'll bring you to brunch somewhere.
HER: OK. Sure. And then I wanna hold your hand and have a long walk by the sea or river. To walk off the brunch. And occasionally stop you to kiss bomb you.
HIM: Mmm
HER: Or ask you to look somewhere else and plant a kiss on your lips. To have you window shop and hug you from behind. Wanna share an ice cream cone with you and fight over the flavours and kiss you with your favourite flavour on my lips. Wanna laugh over the silliest things and fight over the stupidest thing and walk away from you to have you run after me and give me the biggest hug from behind. And then kiss because we are just that stupid. Wanna go to the market with you to pick random ingredients to then decide that we are not even sure what to cook with them. Wanna see you cook your stuff and then for you to realise it isn't tasty and laugh about it. Wanna cook delicious stuff for you and stuff the fridge with goodies that we cook so you will not be hungry and wonder what to get from outside. I wanna do a million things with you. I could die a million times for all the apocalypses to happen just to experience those things with you.

And then she waits and there is no reply.

LOVE YOURSELF BECAUSE NO ONE ELSE WILL

We are at this crossroad again. Decisions have to be made. Perhaps heads will roll, perhaps they will not. We don't know. Perhaps sometimes we care too much. Perhaps, just perhaps our focus is in the wrong place.

There are so many times we want to run away, to a place no one knows us. That perhaps we can start from scratch and no one cares. We can be anyone we want. There is no history, no nothing, just this very moment and tomorrow, and just us. When we are expected to make changes and the people who have asked us for that aren't helping, we question where the whole universe is heading. Why ask us the question then? When the universe makes something happen, is it to test our tenacity to steer clear and do the right thing, or is it telling you 'hey this is the thing to follow'? Everything is so perturbing.

Sitting here this weekend, pondering over career choices amongst other things... The reality is that when the lights are switched off and when you can only hear your own breath and heartbeat, there is only you.

There are questions and more ponders. But yes, we know this. No matter what, we have to come first. Because when you try so hard to make a difference and people only ask you to back off, or when that something just doesn't belong to you, or when you know what the problem is and no one is going to admit that with you and it will never go away... you will be here at night with your hand to your chest, pushing on it so hard because your heart is breaking and you have to keep it in together. Always, always love yourself first. Because no one tries as hard as you in your own life to keep everything working. No one will push your heart back in for you.

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Nah, make that a lucid dream sandwich because it is impossible to make you a sandwich anyway.

SO TIRED FROM LUCID DREAMING

We are working this weekend. We feel good, empowered that our ability has brought us to this stage in life where we have an awesome team supporting us. Despite that, our job is more difficult and sometimes it cause sleepless nights. We get so tired these days that going out to explore the city over the weekend is hardly an activity to consider. 

This tiredness is surreal in itself. We have read about how people look so desperately to get themselves into a lucid dreamscape, when we go into that lucid state every day. For those who do not know what lucid dreaming is about, here is a definition. A lucid dream is any dream in which one is aware that one is dreaming. In relation to this phenomenon, Greek philosopher Aristotle observed: "often when one is asleep, there is something in consciousness which declares that what then presents itself is but a dream".

And as much as people claim that lucid dreaming makes them feel fresh and energised, we beg to differ. We guess if lucid dreaming is something that doesn't happen every night for us, it might be a fresh experience that might just energise us considering how much a novelty it must be. However, this lucid dreaming happens every night. It is fun, and it is great for the weekend when we can sleep in. It is not so fun when the sleep is compromised. It has even become that work happens in our dreams. So, just how restful can that be?

Does anyone out there experience from lucid dreaming every night? Do you feel tired or rested upon wakefulness?

LOVING THESE BEACH SHADES

And yes, you, whoever you are, you will build this for me one day and I shall feed cake to you.

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AND HE SAID: I WOULD BE WORRIED IF YOU DON'T RUFFLE ANY FEATHERS. AND HE SAID: GUYS CAN WAIT, I CAN WAIT. CAB SAV. TO BE APPRECIATED SO MUCH. THE BEAUTY OF MOVIES. COUNTING MY BLESSINGS AND NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY, SO GLAD TO RID NONSENSE IN MY LIFE. COOKING WEEKEND.

SONG OF THE DAY : DAFT PUNK'S FRAGMENTS OF TIME



"Fragments Of Time" (feat. Todd Edwards)

Driving this road down to paradise
Letting the sun light into my eyes
Our only plan is to improvise
And it’s crystal clear
That I don’t ever want it to end
If I had my way I would never leave
Keep building these random memories
Turning our days into melodies
But since I can’t stay

I’ll just keep playing back
These fragments of time
Everywhere I go
These moments will shine

Familiar faces I’ve never seen
Living the gold and the silver dream
Making me feel like I’m seventeen
And it’s crystal clear
That I don’t ever want it to end
If I had my way I would never leave
Keep building these random memories
Turning our days into melodies
But since I can’t stay
 I’ll just keep playing back
These fragments of time
Everywhere I go
These moments will shine


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MEETING WITH A VERY OLD FRIEND AND NOTHING HAS CHANGED. THE LAST BATCH OF HOMEMADE TOMATO PASTE WITH PASTA. VINO. BUTTERFLIES TO FIRST DAY OF WORK TOMORROW. DOCUMENTARIES AFTER DOCUMENTARIES. LUCKY AND MISSED THE DOWN POUR. HAVING THE ABILITY TO COOK IS WONDERFUL.
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